Preparedness. That is the key to be acceptable of and comfortable in any given situation. Life changes, sometimes slowly over a period of time, or smack! right in your face overnight. But playing multiple simulated reruns of the situation in your mind helps in knowing exactly what to do when the time comes. People can call it overthinking too.
However, the anomaly lies in the situations consisting of factors integral to your life, because the event maybe rehearsed, but the aftermath can only be predicted to a certain extent, and hence the preparedness would always be lousy at best. Hence it seeps in your life in ways you didn’t fathom, or didn’t want to think would fathom.
The life that lied beyond the closed doors of B 3 0 7, still exists, in bits and pieces, in this universe. But the me that existed beyond it would only be able to make guest appearances in my life now. Like he comes and says hi whenever I am going out to buy momos, just in case I needed veg momos too, which is absurd. Or during the times when I return from the office to find the empty parking space filled, but with a different car. At times he makes me halt across these hawkers in case we need to buy Esse Lights.
He does come in handy at times too, especially during shopping at malls, as his immunity to window shopping is godly. But mostly he comes in the form of reminiscence, like walking in the lift and glancing over the level 3 button before pushing the level 7.
The thing that intrigues me about humans, is the fact that we do have a power to predict the future, by tracking the natural progression of things taking their due course. And hence humans also hold the power to change their future by causing an action to change the course of it. But we still choose to feel helpless due to a bizarre concept of freewill. So the situation should follow the desired course from the traditional one, not because we want so and will do things to ensure so, but because we think that the desired course is the better course. Or as if the situation has a conscience of its own which allows it to choose to occur in a certain way.
How hard it is for us to accept the fact that our actions, or inaction cause the events in our lives to occur in a certain way? But then, even after knowing the same doesn’t make it easier to live with it. And maybe that’s why I end up departing with that part of me. It’s like breaking up with yourself on good terms. You know you wish well for each other, but also know would hurt each other more than doing good. So decide to walk on the separate paths with only happy memories kept alive.
So, I guess I have broken up with the guy who thrived beyond the locked doors of B 3 0 7. Whatever he has taught me will always remain with me. But I knew what was coming, as they say, “all things, good or bad, come to an end”.
ABSINRAW 